Struggles and Beliefs

I struggle with anxiety. It produces a lot of stress in my life. This is leftover from my days at Hennepin County. I’ll tell that story at some future point, but for now, suffice it to say that it was a nightmare for me.

The anxiety is a daily battle for me, causing difficulties from controlling my thoughts to literally remembering to breathe. DBT says that people need to do a reality check on their thoughts if they find themselves too distressed about them. When I remember to do this (and that’s the key), it works to help alleviate some anxiety.

Breathing exercises are good too since I do have difficulty remembering to breathe. I’ve had asthma since I was quite young, and they tell me it has developed into COPD. Having asthma and forgetting to breathe is a stressor by itself.

I am not without support though. Other than my therapist, I have my AA groups. I’m one of the lucky ones, having found some groups that I absolutely Love! When I got sober the first time (11/17/86), I was going to a group at the church I was born and raised in. It did not have the structure or diversity that Suburban North Alano has. People are different everywhere you go and the people at the Alano are so much more loving and caring than at that church meeting.

I could wander into the ‘what-ifs’ about back then versus now, but we all know that’s a waste of time and energy.

Anyway, I have some opinions that not everyone will agree with. I hate the orange one… you know… DJT… I won’t even type the name, much less say it because words have power and I don’t want to give him ANY more power than he already has. He is a liar and a criminal and the people who put him in office are No Better Than Him. I am a dyed-in-the-wool liberal who has No tolerance for political discussions with republicans.

I believe in Choice for women. No one tells me what to do with My body, much less my life! I believe that the taking away of that choice would lead to fewer freedoms for women overall.

I also do not believe in any version of god that demands worship. God is a man-made concept. The bible is just a book… written by people who could well have decided to build a great Fictional story around a character named Jesus. One way or another, the bible was written by human beings. As is true of my belief in choice, I will never deny anyone their belief in any god of their choosing. I do believe that people need to believe in something greater than themselves and it’s not up to me to tell them what that is. Also, I have no tolerance for people who try to push their religion on others.

I think that’s enough for one day. What do you think?

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